I miss him...

Today Alex went to pre-school.

I'm so happy and excited for him, but I also miss him terribly. I know that it's good for him, and I would never keep him home just for me.

I worked until he was 15 months old. It was so hard for me to leave him at the center, but I knew he was taken care of. He was normally fine when we left him, and only cried when he was around 10 months old after Joe had been gone for a week for a business meeting. It broke my heart because he would cry as we pulled into the parking lot.

When Joe and I met we talked about our future quite early. I told him that my dream was to be a stay at home mom. As most of you know, Joe wasn't exactly in the position to do that for me, so I figured it would never happen. I loved him and I went to day care growing up. I figured that as a CPA, I would be the "bread winner" and I was happy to do that. I loved Joe and wanted to be with him!

I remember my mom telling me that she never knew how much love a mother has for her child until I was born. She couldn't believe how strong her love was. When Alex was born, and placed on my chest, it was like my heart swallowed him up. I loved him so much!!! It was the most wonderful feeling in the world.

Joe went back to school in August 2004. He graduated in December 2005 and already had a job at the company he is at now. We started saving and by August 2006 I was able to stay home! What a wonderful experience it has been and I am so thankful to Joe for this opportunity every day. He told me that back when we were dating, and I said I wanted to be able to stay home with our children, he made it his goal to give that to me. I have the best husband in the world!

So, now my little boy is growing up! He will make friends and learn new things. I am so happy for him but my heart felt a little sad that I had to share him this morning.